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Wednesday, May 16, 2012
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Online Dedication for the Unborn
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If you've lost a child - through your own abortion or someone you know - we're sorry for your loss. We invite you to dedicate your beloved unborn to our Heavenly Father. We believe that forgiveness is God's gift and that because He so loved the little children, that He allows them all to return Home.
A person does not have to be the parent of an unborn child to honor that child's life...by naming or by dedication. Abortion deeply affects more than just the mother.
Consider...
- A grandparent who talked, supported or drove their daughter to the abortion or may not even had known of their son/daughter's pregnancy.
- The dad whose wife/girlfriend chose abortion against his better judgement, consent or even without his knowledge.
- Children that were told their lives would be easier because a younger sibling was aborted.
- The friend who drove a woman to the clinic pregnant, and back home "un" pregnant.
- A family member, friend, counselor or clergy, who tried to talk a mother/father out of an abortion, and failed.
- The nurse, clinic worker or abortion doctor who later regrets their participation in taking the lives of the unborn
Thus some children listed may have been dedicated by their mothers, fathers, grandparents, siblings, cousins, aunt/uncles, friends, clergy etc. Individuals, much like those above, can and have received help, healing and hope through an abortion recovery program.
We believe that names for the unborn are given by God, as He personally carries His children home to Heaven. Many of the children honored here, had family members pray about what God had already named their babies prior to having them dedicated (the stories of how He shared those names are amazing)! Others chose to name the children themselves. Some picked nicknames or words of endearment!
It doesn't really matter "how" the names were conceived, or who did it.
What matters is that these unborn babies have had their lives confirmed and dedicated to our Heavenly Father.
God blesses those who welcome his children,
as the Kingdom ultimately belongs to them!
Matthew 9:14 & Mark 9:37
If you'd like to leave a dedication in honor of your unborn child, or a child lost in your family due to abortion, please feel free to do so. Simply scroll down past the dedications to the message box below. For some this might not be an easy step, for some it might be the first. If you need to speak with an Abortion Recovery Specialist, please feel free to call us.
NOTE: City and website fields are optional. Email is requested only to protect the integrity of those entering information. Your private information will not be disclosed.
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| Name: Renee | Date: 5/4/2012 | | I love you, Joey! :) |
| State: CA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Sherri | Date: 5/4/2012 | I am truly sorry that you are not here with your brother's and sister. I know you are with the Lord now. I was a selfish young mother who was told things that were not true. You were my babies, not just a "fetus"!!!! Please forgive me my sweet children and I will see you again someday in heaven. And thank you Lord for sending Jesus so that I might have forgiveness for all my sins. I love you both with all of my heart and soul.
Love,
Mommy |
| State: Texas | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Michelle | Date: 4/12/2012 | | I was 6 weeks pregnant when I found out about you!it was such a huge shock to me ..your daddy not being able to look after us and myself not having a decent job..how could we bring you in this world if we cant even look after ourselves..how selfish of us!!it hurts still..thinking about you becuse you are something we made together and a part of me didn't want to give you up!I know you are with Jesus and I'm so grateful for that!I never thought that I ever would have done something like this!!please forgive me..I wanted to give you the best..and I'm not the best right now!I forgave myself for all of this..but I will always think of you and you will always be part of me! Thanks Jesus For welcoming my baby with open arms!! |
| State: Freestate | | Country: South Africa |
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| Name: Miriam | Date: 3/28/2012 | It has been 26 years ago that I made the decision to abort you. I know in my heart that you were the daughter I would never bear. I have spent countless hours thinking about you. Your father was a young medical student, just beginning his residency, certainly not ready for a wife, let along a child. Had I been brave enough, I would've had you and raised you alone, but I was not that brave. I was frightened and felt as if I had no other option. I know that God has forgiven me and up until tonight I thought I had forgiven myself. I know, my precious child, that you will know me when I get to Heaven... you will know me as your mother and I will know that you are my own precious child. I know there are no tears in heaven but my darling child, I am asking that you forgive me, and know that I have loved you every day for these 26 years.
Your Mother |
| State: Georgia | | Country: United States |
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| Name: An | Date: 3/22/2012 | Dear Drew,
I never meet you. You were aborted many years before I was born. I hope that we would of been close. We will get to meet in heaven.
Love,
An |
| State: m | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Rhonda | Date: 3/20/2012 | Dear Olivia, Luke, and Aisha,
Thank-you for the gift of brokenness...thank-you for offering your lives as invitations for me to come to Life, to Jesus.
I am sorry that I did not recognize you or Him reaching out to me. I want you to know that I finally SEE, I understand who you are, and I want you to know that I am able to love you now. I am able to look forward to meeting you in heaven and can't wait until our family is fully united with you and Jesus.
My heart is still hurting from the realization of what I have missed out on...three lives that would have changed and added so much joy to mine. Olivia, you would be 18 now and fully grown. I know that you are beautiful and probably look a lot like your brothers. I am sorry my sweet baby girl. I have heard you crying out to me so many times and I finally hear you and hear Jesus with you. I am here and I will live and give my life weight in this world, and carry you in my heart so that your life has weight now too. You matter to me.
Luke, you would be 16 now and I can only imagine that you and Josh would have been best buddies. I know that he has missed you and that there has been a void in our lives because I did not let you come into this world.
I am sorry my son, I did not know what I was doing. Your brother is so amazing and I truly believe that knowing you did not get to be here has giving him the extra measure of calling on his life to shine strong for both of you. You are missed.
Aisha...your name means, "She LIVES!" How I cried when I Jesus gave me your name, and even though you came into my life at a time when I was physically alive,but spiritually and emotionally dead. You were like a life line that I rejected and, because I did, I sank further and further into the deep. I can see you with big brown eyes, and dark wavy hair. You are beautiful and full of joy. I can't wait to meet you in heaven and for you to meet your little sisters. They are Hope and Faith, but I know that you would have been my Joy!
What hope it gives me to know that you LIVE and I want you to know that we will all be together one day because Jesus never stopped coming for me...when I was broken and at the end of myself, I finally let Him in and He has been and still is bringing me back to life. Now I LIVE too sweet baby girl!
This is how the LORD brought me restoration through remembering and knowing the three of you. Olivia, your name means OLIVE and I did not understand what that was suppose to mean to me, until Jesus showed me about the Olive press. That, when olives are pressed, the first offering of oil is Holy and goes to the LORD. Olivia, you were my first press my love. There were three presses and three rejections, just as in the garden, Jesus was pressed three times just before He went to the cross. And three times, the men closest to Him slept and did not realize what was going on. Three times, Peter rejected Him and three times Jesus asked him the question, "Do you love me?" and gave Him the command, "Feed My sheep." Three times, I rejected You Jesus, but You have restored me and I will feed Your sheep, just as You are already feeding my little lambs. So, I know that you cannot come back to me, but one day, I will join you where you are and we will have all of eternity together. Until then, I will press on towards to upward call of God in Christ Jesus. I love you and thank Jesus for giving you to me.
See you soon,
Mom |
| State: Texas | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Erin Maguire | Date: 3/12/2012 | Dear Son,
Being 23 years old and finding out about you was the scariest and happiest things in my life. Your father, my boyfriend, has been one of the best guys that I have ever dated. We gave serious thought towards what we should do. Every day was a constant mental battle of do we selfishly bring you into a world that is unstable in itself, but with parents who have no jobs and a family who would not be ready to accept you, or do we take our chances and do "the right thing". Your father and I care about you so much. We started picking out names and at one point we're convinced that we were going to keep you, but we also had to face the grim reality that it was impossible and unfair to you. We wanted the best for you, and as much as I regret the decision that we chose, it seems like it was for the best. My days are long and tear filled, and there is not one single moment that I do not think of you and what you could have been. I see you in my dreams, and I hope that you can forgive me. My life has unraveled because of my actions, your father and I aren't together anymore because my emotions from losing you have over come me. My mom condemns me for making the more responsible decision. But besides that, I just wish that I could hold you in my stomach still instead of medicating myself just to get back to some state of normalcy. There is so much more that I want to say to you, and so much more begging for forgiveness that I would be doing. I should have been more responsible, and I am sorry.
Titan, I will love you forever and always.
Your Mommy,
Erin |
| State: Florida | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Miss. A | Date: 3/10/2012 | Please forgive your mummy .... I asked you to forgive me as I spoke to you in my tummy I hope my prays will be answered, I want you to know that bringing you into this world at this time of my life was truly not the right time, nor was it the ideal situation as your daddy and I are not together, and to bring you here in this world under those conditions would only be too much for me to bare, and I am sorry for thinking initially like that but then to later realize that I would have not been able to carry you to term as I entered into complications, I feel like I am carrying the lost of your precious life all by myself and it is ripping me apart as I truly believe that every child has a right in this world and my abortion was only couple days ago. I feel a sense of emptiness and a huge shadow of depression and no one seems to understand what I am going through, I saw you by the ultrasounds and I heard your little heartbeat and those are all I have of you, memories...... I need soo much to scream at the top of my lungs and how I feel to rip my heart out of my chest every time I see that operating room in my memory as I don't know how they disposed of you like you were not apart of me and like you didn't matter just because that was the decision I made, I soo need your father to have been able to help me through this, I guess he is dealing with this lost differently, but at the same time I feel alone .... I asked to name you as I feel that is my last bit of respect I should have for your life as short as it was no child should be unnamed, as you were a life inside of me and I loved you enough to make sure I didn't try to harm my body by eating awful and taking anything for the discomfort of being pregnant causes, I respected you then and I will respect you now, and I dedicate your body to Christ as you were a perfect life in an imperfect situation, and I name you Amour Annabel, for "Love and Easy to Love" . I am sorry for what has happened and I am trying to be strong, God knows I am but this is proving to be too much for me to handle as you just left my life. As I write this it feels like every word is being carved in my heart as I cry openly feeling all of this pain, and I have to silently cry because no one is understanding how I feel as I think what you could have been? or who you would have looked like? But I know that you are in Heaven and this is not the end for us ......... Jesus will keep you warm
Forever in my heart.
Your Mummy |
| State: Christ Church | | Country: Barbados |
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| Name: Las | Date: 3/2/2012 | Baby Ava/ Thomas
I am sooooo sorry.... Please know that I did what I thought was best, and quite frankly it was an awful decision bourne out of fear. Not a minute goes by that a don't think of you. I will spend the rest of my life seeking some sort of redemption for my terrible terrible mistake. I will always love you.
Mummy
Xoxoxo |
| State: UK | | Country: United Kingdom |
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| Name: Grandma | Date: 2/22/2012 | My dearest Grandchild,
Today you joined our dear Heavenly Father far too soon. I'm so sorry I could not convince your mother and father to bring you into our lives. You would have been surrounded by so much love but I know you are safe and loved in Heaven. My heart is heavy and my arms are empty. One day I will have the privilege to know you and maybe then, I can rock-a-bye you to sleep and watch you as you dream your sweet baby dreams. Until then, my precious grandchild, I will dream of you. You are loved.
Love,
Grandma |
| State: North Carolina | | Country: United States |
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| Name: E | Date: 2/17/2012 | My dear Sweet Baby,
I am so sorry I had to let you go. I was in a very terrible situation. I was scared. Its been a year and I am constantly drained from the thoughts I what I've done. I am so sorry. I am working to better myself and situation --so we can meet again. God Bless your sweet little soul. I will never forget about what I did to you and there will always be regret-- I wish things were perfect-- I pray that one day I can find true peace about what I did. I've been mourning since the day I let you go and there is a sense of emptiness in me. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. I pray that God will forgive me. I love you and you will always have a place in my heart. |
| State: GA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Rashelle | Date: 2/13/2012 | Peanut,
Yesterday I found out you were gone. I will never see your little purple toes or marvel at your tiny fingers. I will never finish the little lamb hat I started. I will never gaze into your eyes and think about how Im looking at an angel. And Im sorry you couldnt come and be a part of our family. I hope you get another chance to experience the pains and joys of life. I dont fully understand why you are not here and I cant make excuses for your moms decision. I wish with all my heart she could have given you more time. I wish she would have been able to hear your heart beat and realise that you were alive inside her. Please try to forgive her anyway and I will try and do the same.
Love Aunt Rashelle |
| State: Ut | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Brandy | Date: 2/9/2012 | Dear Preston Isaiah,
The bible tells us that every good and perfect gift comes from above. James 1:17. Did you know that you are a good and perfect gift from heaven? Please forgive mommy for being selfish by not allowing you the privilege and honor of living on this earth. Although mommy hurts everyday for you, God is changing me. He gave you eternal life and because of that mommy is much better. From the moment I knew of your existence until the moment you went to be with our Heavenly Father I loved you and still do. You were SO STRONG and COURAGEOUS! God knew the plans for your life and He wanted to make sure you had a comfy seat next to Him. Please know that no matter how your life began and ended you were wonderfully and fearfully made. You were a perfect creation. It took me 12 years to realize you were my child from heaven, not without a face & name. Until we meet again in heaven...
Your mommy. |
| State: GA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Hannah Moore | Date: 2/9/2012 | Little Madeline Sue, or Marshall
I wanted to to be here with us so much. I loved you as soon as your momma told me about you. She told me that she couldnt keep you, I told her that your uncle John and aunt Hannah would love to adopt you. I begged her to let you have life, I told her it would work out, and that you were not a choice but a baby. I showed her pictures of what you looked like and how you would grow. Im so sorry that I failed you. I know you are with Jesus now, which is a much better place then here on earth. I think of you often and I hope you know that you are and will always be loved.
Aunt Hannah |
| State: North Carolina | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Jackie | Date: 2/9/2012 | I wasn't in the best of positions to care for another child and my marriage was rocky at best. I did this against my will but had the best of intentions. I know in my heart this was to be my first son and I named him Landy Michael. Mommy loves you baby boy! His precious life was taken 07/09/03 and I wrote this poem 08/24/03.
Today was a good day
Except for thoughts of you
I should be 16 weeks along
Instead I'm feeling blue
I love you very much
Even though you're not here
I'm saddened everyday
With thoughts of you not being near
I know what they say
No one's ever to blame
I know I could've saved you
Now all I feel is shame
People say not to blame myself
It was just God's will
I know that's all bull
I am to blame still
You were my baby boy
Though they couldn't tell for sure
Call it mommy's intuition
For that is 100% pure
I miss you very much
My child you were to be
I haven't forgotten you
Though you're no longer with me
I know you are happy
My beloved little doeve
Knowing I love you
Smiling down from above
Your life was taken away
Before you had the chance
To be my special angel
No matter what the circumstance
I know you still love me
And forgive me too
That's hard for me to accept
Knowing what I did to you
I could live 1000 year
But cannot hit rewind
Please just remember
You're always on my mind
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| State: Ohio | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Pamela | Date: 2/9/2012 | | I found out I was pregnant with you while recovering from your older brother's birth. I could not lift my head or get up without being dreadfully ill. My husband at the time blamed me for getting pregnant although it was him that had forced sex on me before it would have been safe. His family would not speak to me and they refused to help me at all. Living with the daily was a horrible place with no one to help or even care how I was feeling. I could not care for your brother and he needed me. With a heavy heart I asked my mother to help me, since I could not get into my doctor I decided to terminate your life so I could care for your brother. It was the most awful feeling I have ever had and I had wished that it had ended differently. Over the years I have carried my sorrow and I had only one more child before fleeing my abusive marriage. Over the years I have prayed and prayed, seeking peace for my sin. God gave me the name Peter, his chosen name for you. How I wish I could go back and change what I did. You would be 26 this year...Please forgive me for not having the strength to do the right thing which is not what I did. You deserved to live, love, grow and be everything that God had created you to be...my heart still aches over this... |
| State: Virginia | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Ann Marcus | Date: 2/9/2012 | | I pray for all the unborn and for my daughter & her husband who are still grieving for their child Wolfgang who was born full term & died. How badly that child was wanted and loved. It breaks my heart to know that there are babies who are aborted unnecessarily. If the mother did not want him/her, rest assured there are many people who would love to hold this child & raise it as was my 83 year old husband...he has brought much joy into my life. |
| State: GA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Irma | Date: 2/5/2012 | Baby Samuel,
Due to be born in July 25th, 2012
Sent back to heaven in December 10th, 2011
How I miss you my little boy, I am so sorry I didn't have the courage to face the world to have you, forgive me for I promised you I would fight for our well being, I promised you we were going to be happy together no matter what, for I know God would have helped us with his love and mercy. I am sorry I didn't. I am so sorry for not loving you while you were in my womb, but I know you don't want me to punish myself for that, I know you forgive me my little baby, and I will treasure in my heart the very few happy moments we had together. Even though grandpa and grandma don't know about you, still I want to tell you this: they would have loved you very very much, me and your uncle would have experienced what it's like not to be number one anymore. Your daddy, I know he really misses you too, and loves you very much. You should have been my number one, I will never forget you. I want to honor you by having a good life, giving my heart to God and becoming a light to the world by the blood of Jesus, forgiving myself, and living in peace from now on. I know you would have been a mighty warrior of God. I will pray for your father, and all your relatives now on earth, to get to know Jesus, and one day we will all be together. Mommy loves you very much my sweet sunshine, it's for you I will never give up, I will never stop trying, I will never believe God's love for me is dying.
This is a song that touched my heart before knowing I was preagnant with Samuel, I believe it was God speaking to my heart about my baby, and naming him, this is my little boy's song, baby Samuel, a light to this world, to this family, to this young woman that now misses him so much.
Samuel, will you lend me your ear?
This is the voice of your father here
If I speak the word and no one has the vision
Can I count on you, my sweet child to listen?
Samuel, lend me your ear
Cause the whole world's in love with you baby
I am in love with you child
You are so meek and mild
You are a holy child
Samuel, lend me your ear
Samuel, will you lend me your ear?
The truth is not always how things appear
So listen with your heart, listen to the spirit
Listen to my voice child and you will hear it
Samuel, lend me your ear
Cause the whole world's in love with you baby
I am in love with you child
You are so meek and mild
You are a holy child
Samuel, lend me your ear
There will be days you feel like flying
Then there'll be days you feel like crying
Never give up, never stop trying
Never believe my love is dying
Cause when the whole world is through with you baby
I will still love you, my child
You are so meek and mild
You are a holy child
Samuel, lend me your ear |
| State: Tamaulipas | | Country: Mexico |
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| Name: Lea | Date: 1/29/2012 | One of you would be 36, one would be 28 and one would be 25. My life has been awfully empty without you. You will never know how sorry I am for the choices I made. I know God has forgiven me and I pray you will too. One day I'll see you in Heaven.
Your mom |
| State: Florida | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Miranda | Date: 1/24/2012 | My Baby:
on Jan 26,1996 i made the decision to abort you...out of my selfishness. Me and your dad had been together 4yrs but i was starting college and he was starting quarterback for his senior year in high school. i knew we had no means to take care of you BUT looking back i know God would have given the means and blessed your llife. He has great plans for each one and i intervened and destroyed yours. i am so sorry and ask for God's forgiveness every day. i think of you every day and the guilt and pain i have felt for the last 16yrs consumes me at times. I love you and always will...know i'm forgiven and pray that you too forgive me and know you are missed even though we never met. I look forward to the day seeing you in heaven! |
| State: TN - Tennessee | | Country: United States |
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| Name: anonymous | Date: 1/24/2012 | My little Samantha...due to be born in July of 1990. Aborted in December of 1989. Later the Lord gave me 2 more daughters, one born in December and one born in July. I know that is not a coincidence.
I will see her one day and I can't wait to meet her. I think of you every single day of my life. I am sorry. |
| State: MD | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Catherine | Date: 1/22/2012 | Baby Mia Jo
Due 7th January 2012
Aborted 10th June 2011 :(
I dont know if you were a baby girl but I have the biggest gut and maternal instinct that you were. I am truly sorry I couldnt give you the life or opportunities I wanted to give you so badly. I was frightened and alone. I had family and friends to support me yet they made me feel like I couldn't have you in my life. Your daddy isnt a nice person, deep down he is the nicest, most caring, funny man I ever wished to meet. But as time has progressed i've seen a man who I would of been happy to have in my life forever progress into a selfish, selfish person. He had no time for me, and as soon as he found out about you he had very little time for you too. That broke my heart. How could I bring you my little baby into a world where your own Daddy didn't want you. I would rather my heart be breaking like this, and this horrendous suffering inside of me to go on forever rather than drag you into our messy circle. But make no mistake, I think about you every day. What you would of looked like and how you would of been the apple of my eye. Even though you are not here and I know absolutely its my own selfish and foolish fault I love you more than words will ever describe. Letting you go that day was something that will haunt me forever, I suppose you didn't want to leave me either because my abortion was hell. So many complications, so many close calls with my life and so many hours of physical and mental pain. The mental pain is still as strong as ever. But im glad that this mental pain is with me sometimes as it reminds me of you and that you were actually there. It isnt all just a dream. I can promise you that even though I cannot turn back time I would of made you one happy little person. With all the love, care and devotion you could of ever asked for. I am sorry I let such an inconsiderate and selfish person make me feel I couldn't have you. People may find it so weird me writing this in your memory. But I feel by doing this I can truly understand to myself and say that I regret not having the strength to have you but I never let you go for selfish reasons. I would never of let someone treat you as he treated me and us for that short time. I know one day i'll be an amazing mum and im devastated that I havent got you to prove it. I will never forget you or the very premature image I saw of you at just 7 weeks and 2 days. I hope you have it in your heart to forgive me and i'm praying that this hurt is my way of paying for what i've done and that God can also forgive me. Sleep tight baby.
Dreaming of you always
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| State: LONDON | | Country: United Kingdom |
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| Name: Sarah | Date: 1/19/2012 | Kaleb Thomas,
You would be nine years old now. My heart aches for you every day. I was seventeen when I found out about you, a senior in high school. It was Mother's Day. I loved you from the moment I knew. Your father didn't share my feelings. After being devastated by his lack of support I was numb. Both my mother and his mother agreed this was the best way. My mother and your father were there with me. They held my hands as your life was taken. I felt so betrayed by them. I had never felt a pain or loss so significant. I wanted you back before you were gone. I should have been stronger and stood up for you as a mom should. I am truly sorry for letting you down.
Your father was devastated afterwards. It just took some time for it to be real for him. We were married a year after we lost you. You have three little sisters. I feel as if I have robbed them of having you in their lives. When they grow up I will share your story with them to hopefully prevent them from ever experiencing this.
I love you and I am so sorry. I would give anything to have you here with us. Please forgive me.
Mom |
| State: WA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Reba | Date: 1/14/2012 | Dear Baby,
I remember every tiny detail of the short time we were together. I got pregnant the Tuesday after Valentine's Day, 1994. I found out that I was pregnant on March 15th. Your father left me alone . . . He wouldn't even speak to me, so I couldn't tell him about you. I wanted to tell him. I wanted him to help me. He wouldn't return my calls, or respond to my letters. To this day, I don't know why.
I used to drive around in my car for hours, crying and talking to you. I must have told you a million times that I was sorry. I cried myself to sleep each night...woke up crying. I stopped eating. I stopped going to classes. I could barely force myself out of bed to take a shower. I was alone. Scared. Terrified. Sick. And desperate.
My father, your grandfather, was/is incredibly abusive. I was terrified to tell him. I didn't have a job...was 19 years old...and in my first year of college.
So, on April 1, I called and made the appointment. I couldn't even make the appointment without crying, but the receptionist was so matter of fact, thanked me for calli, and told me to have a nice day. I hung up the phone, and layed on the floor and cried. It was raining so hard, and as I listened to the rain I imagined the heavens were crying with me.
On April 30, I traveled two hours and entered the clinic. They gave me two white pills that made me feel very detached.
I remember every second of the actual procedure. Every brutal heart wrenching second.
18 years later, I can say that I have thought of you every day. For many years, I was convinced that I was going straight to hell. I drank myself into numbness many, many nights. Begged God to forgive me. I was tormented with nightmares and flashbacks. Then I spiraled into a dark, dark depression. I considered suicide. Often.
After some time, I put on my "mask." I'm still wearing it. The world around me thinks I am ok. They don't know our secret. I do understand that God has forgiven me, and I am not bound for hell. I will see you in heaven. In the meantime, I still grieve for the life I took from you. I am so sorry.
Rest in Jesus Arms..... I love You,
Mom |
| State: WV | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Mom | Date: 1/12/2012 | Dear my child,
I would be 11 weeks pregnate today, i still think about you everyday.
I what you to know that i love you every much, you daddy and ur grand father loved you very much too... We all made this decision so mommy and daddy didnt have to struggle the rest of your lives to provide a wonderful life for you.
I hope you can forgive me, i had the feeling you would be the son ive always wanted.. I have many days where i regret what i did to you. I still lay in bed holding my tummy wondering what it would have been like to hear your lil heart beat a week ago..
Please for give me my child i love you
Ill never forget you,
Mommy
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| State: WI | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Gramma | Date: 1/11/2012 | Precious:
It's so hard to face the fact that my daughter ended your life. I didn't find out until almost 2 years later. The anger, the pain, the confusion...all hard to bear. I'm sorry that you were forced to go. The situation was bad but I would have bathed you in all the love you would have ever needed.
We will be together some day.
Gramma |
| State: Sorrow | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Tanya | Date: 12/19/2011 | To my sweet Angel in heaven;
I will never forget you my love, the two months your heart beat next to mine forever changed me. Forgive me my sweet angel, my precious diamond for the choice your mommy made. I was so young, thought I was in love and was pushed by the man I thought loved me. I was so naive, young, sad and lost. I tried not thinking about the choice I made that forever changed the course of my life, but it was hopeless. My sweet angel please forgive me for what I've done! I thank God for helping me with healing and forgiveness, i have a hard time fully forgiving my self. I'm so sorry, my heart breaks to this day, I feel so empty. I think about how different my life could be if I had you in my life, to hold and love you everyday. I pray to one day hold you next to me and look into your eyes and be forgiven. I love you so much, I can't explain the emptiness I was left with.
April 29th, 2007 will always be a sad day for me. My life has never been the same since nor do I have a sense of normalcy in my life. I'm lost, empty and always running away. Pain haunts me, not the physical although at times I would take that instead. Regret, shame, worthlessness follow me where ever I go. Thoughts of suicide were/are a constant struggle to this day and that voice in my head "killer" keeps drawing me into despair. If I did kill myself I would never get to see you. Nothing in this life brings me joy, alcohol has been a steady companion since. I have been on a path of self destruct, broken relationships and a broken heart. I pray for healing, I pray to one day hold a baby sister or brother and feel healed from the indescribable pain.
I love you so much, I wish I could hold you, touch you, kiss you and never let you go. Your mommy is not a bad person she just made a bad choice and for that please forgive me:(
I think you are a little girl, with beautiful green eyes like me, white skin and dark hair. You love to sing and you love the piano just like your mom. I bet your are the most beautiful little girl in heaven. I hope you watch over me and love me from afar. My little Melody. I love you.
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| State: California | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Natalie | Date: 11/21/2011 | Honey Badger,
Its only been two days. You were my biggest mistake but that did not make me resent you. I feel sorrow, relief and regret toward my decison. The only thing that gives me hope is that God has you now and I hope that he can provide for you..
The moment that I found out I was pregnant for you, I loved you but at the same time scared. I am only 20 and still in college but I would have loved to see what you looked like. I only had you 6 weeks and 2 days but I was already attached.
I already called you a he. I even had a nick name for you, honey badger because you did take everything I had, like my energy, my food and my love. But i'm not complaining.
I would love for you to know that I did this for you. If it was my choice, you would have been brought up into the world. Unfourtunately society doesnt always work that way. If i was in my last semester of college, I would have kept you so that I could provide for you.
I love you so much. my parents and your dad were more set on the decision than I was. I hope its because they loved you.
Unfourtunately now all i have left is the ultrasound picture left but I know you're here in my heart and in spirit. I plan on gettign a locket and putting your picture in it. I hope that I can make somehting out of myself and mabye one day we'll see that everything worked out for the best.
I hope I can let you go one day and find closure. I hope that I can be considered your mommy still.
Love, Mommy |
| State: LA | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Mommy | Date: 11/20/2011 | Dear Zachary
You would be 23 now. You would have been born in August 1988.
The word "abortion" was just a word. Just a word. "Pregnant," just a word. It meant nothing, there was no meaning behind it, no human being.
Now you have three beautiful siblings, and you would have been a wonderful big brother.
Or would you have? I was so young, my parents would have been involved somehow and they would have been so ashamed. Would I have been able to raise you in that environment? Would I have been able to give you the life that you deserve in the cloud of all that judgment and shame? Would I/it have ruined you?
I don't know. But if I could do it again, I would have done my best.
Everything I have done since then means nothing in light of your loss. it was all worth nothing. I would trade it in a SECOND...in a SECOND, in a fraction of a second...to go back in time and have you. And have beautiful you. Come what may, there is nothing, NOTHING, worth losing you for.
I am so sorry I took your life away. If only someone had forced me to listen to your heartbeat! To look at you on the ultrasound! to HEAR YOUR HEARTBEAT!!! To see what you looked like on that day!!!! To make you REAL!!!!!
YOU WERE NOT REAL TO ME. You were not real to me until they were pulling you out of me. I am so sorry Zachary, I can never forgive myself, not ever. i am so sorry i was so weak. I am so sorry i was so stupid, so ignorant, so fearful, so ashamed, so weak. so stupid and so weak and so ignorant.
you weren't real to me. you are now.
i love you so much. with all my heart. can i love you from here? Can i continue to love you from here?
I do. I love you.
Your mom.
L.A. |
| State: ca | | Country: United States |
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| Name: Katherine | Date: 10/25/2011 | To my little baby boy,
I just want you to know, your dad and I love you more than anything. We never wanted to lose our little baby - but the timing was wrong, and we would not have been able to give you a proper life.
I still hold my tummy thinking about when I would hold it knowing you were inside, and I would talk to you, even though you were too young to hear me.
I will never ever forget you, and I really wish you were with me right now. You were my gorgous baby.
Its been 6 weeks now since you were forced to leave me, and I would be 22 weeks pregnant now - I would have been able to feel you move.
You were conceived out of love, and nothing less. I will be getting a tattoo as a symbol to you.
I love you so much, I only wish you came years later. I miss you more than anyone will ever know.
I wish I had protected you, but I can promise you, you will never be forgotten. and if you ever have any brothers or sisters, they will know about you too.
Your daddy and I love you so much, and I think about you every single day.
I will never stop feeling guilty for what I have done. I keep replaying it all in my mind.
I love you, and I hope you can rest in peace now.
I love you my little star
Mummy
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| State: Essex | | Country: United Kingdom |
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